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February 27, 1983 October 6, 2009

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February 27, Sunday
8:00 am

Well we’ve been here for one week now.  It ain’t been easy but I have had some fun.  It just hasn’t been too awesomely dynamic.  Yet I am to be living in the new dynamic church.  What am I to do and how?

Pat L., Ron B., and Miriam M. met with all the Lightbearers yesterday.  It was “let’s get honest” time.  Out of twelve Lightbearers we only have two new people fully registered.  That ain’t right.  The thing is that this is happening all over east Texas.  The reason?  Number one, we are not being mentally aggressive enough.

What is my purpose for being here?  I am here to find the hungry hearts, to speak the Word, to preach and teach and heal, to put a class of 12 people together.  How shall I do that?  Listen to that still small voice.

Father, I have been trying but I know that I can do more.  This morning I was reading the Book of Acts.  What turned people on then were the manifestations.  The apostles spoke in tongues; Peter and John healed a lame man.    That was the witness.

Why not me God?  Huh?  I’ve come out here for two weeks.  I’m now into the second week.  With Emily I saw a bit of the power of your spoken Word.  But I haven’t really seen the dunamis.  I want to see it God.  I don’t have time to waste.  I know my heart is right before You.  I know I want to move the Bible.

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February 23, 1983 October 3, 2009

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February 23, Wednesday

Tuesday was spent at the University of Dallas in Irving.  I talked to a few guys there, but not many.  The morning was spent at Dennys.  Tuesday night was spent at Twig.  I taught from John, chapter 8, on forgiveness and the love of God.

A lady, Emily, and her child, Morgan, came.  They are from Luxemburg.  It was exciting as Emily opened her heart.  I spent time with her until 10:00 that evening.  We talked about what would be the healing factor in her life to heal her from the torment she has been through the last years.  The only thing to heal her is the undiluted Word of God.  She is going to take the Class.

What have I been learning?  The discipline it takes to move the Word.  Today I only spoke to one person, I should have talked to ten.  We went to do laundry and then went to a lake.  Then we went to the Rec Center where I fell asleep outside.   Now it is 5:00 pm.  Tonight we go hor’douving.  It’s 70 degrees outside.

I’m seeing where my mind goes.  It’s pretty unruly.  It is of utmost importance that I control my thoughts and bring them captive.  How easy it is for me to fall into my deires, or to fall into the state of mind of inadequacy.  I am inadequate.  Of myself I can do and am nothing.  God is the one to be at the forefront of my mind.  It is in Him that I am to put my trust!

I’m going to read part of As a Man Thinketh and do some retemories.  Then I shall head down to Emily’s.

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February 21, 1983 October 3, 2009

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February 21, Monday
6:45 am

Yesterday was basically settling in day.  I went with Melody and Mary to buy groceries.  Chris went to a Lightbearers Coordinator’s Meeting.  Veda and Mike went with William for an Irving tour.  We rendezvoused at 324 Irving at 1:30 pm.  We napped from 2:00 until 4:00 and then went to a wonderful pot-bless dinner at the Branch Coordinator’s home where all the Lightbearers for Irving gathered. It was a good time of fellowship.

Afterward we headed to an area of bars called European Cross Roads.  It’s a nice place with old buildings and brick walks.  What did I learn or see?  I don’t know.  How do I feel now?  What do I really want while I am out here?

The biggest thing I want Father is success.  I want to and will see results.  Your Word says I can do all things.  That means what it says, especially in the area of walking by the spirit.  I want desperately Father to apply witnessing skills, and I want to love to the point that I have no fear!  That I don’t care what people think or say.  And more than anything, I want to see big and good reslults!  Wholesome live real results!

Today I want to develop passion for outreach, simply decide to care enough to reach out and touch, reach out and love expecting nothing in return.

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