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July 13-16, 1983 October 28, 2009

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July 13, Wednesday

It is Wednesday.  Currently I am at the hospital with Daddy.  It’s not easy battling unbelief.  In fact, I can’t believe some of the attitudes of “can’t” and “never.”  Even before I got into the Word I believed all things were possible.  I just have to remember to think the best of people regardless of their unbelief.

Father, the thing I don’t like to think about is when that damn doctor tells Daddy what is wrong….I don’t want him to use the words  “never” or “can’t” or “permanently.”

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July 16, Saturday

I’m spending the weekend at Uncle Reid’s and Aunt Evelyn’s home with Beth Drum and Mama.  Reid and Evelyn are at the beach.  They live in Winston and Dad is at the Bowman-Gray Hospital in Winston.

Dad was doing good today.  Yesterday I shared with him that I didn’t know what the doctors would tell him but that it didn’t matter what the doctors said, because God can heal anything.  My father is such a sensitive man.

God I know it was not your will for the accident.  I know people around Dad doubt if he will ever walk again.  But God you are bigger than any unbelief.  All I want is to see you heal my father.  I want him to squeeze my hand before I go back to Indiana.  If he can squeeze my hand, he can move his foot!  I want to see it God.

I have been reading my diary this week.  I enjoy it and I enjoy how and what I write.  I see a great maturity in my life, especially in honesty.  I pray my life continues in that direction.

I’m going to read some more.

Goodnight!

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July 12, 1983 October 27, 2009

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July 12, Tuesday

I do say, it has been awhile!  Boy, since L.E.A.D. things haven’t slowed down.  It was difficult being back on campus the first few days, sort of a culture shock.

I typed a research paper after returning from L.E.A.D.  I remember how that I thought typing one of those papers was like a L.E.A.D. experience.  I still think it is because it is a big push if one wants to do it correctly.  Anything is a push if one wants something done correctly.

Currently I’m in North Carolina because Dad was in a bad car accident.

On July 5th, I felt funny all day long.  I felt burdened and heavy.  I thought about calling home but decided that if they needed me, they would call.  On July 6th I got a phone call.  Dad had wrecked and was paralyzed from the neck down.

Boy was I pissed!  Dad was to start the Class on July 24th.  He was excited also and still is.  So I “laid low” in fervent prayer and got all the campuses praying for Dad.  On July 9th I got a phone call at 9:15 AM to come home at 2:30 PM.  I packed my clothes and was on a plane arriving in Winston-Salem (where Dad is in the hospital) around 7:00 PM.

God I picture Daddy playing golf and walking.  I know there is a lot of unbelief (including that damn Dr. Kelly) around.  There’s not much I can do about all that, but help my believing and Mom’s and Dad’s.  God, I don’t understand everything about believing, but I know You are God and You created my dad’s body.  Now put it back together.  You have done it before; do it again.  And Pops a lot of intercession is going on; therefore, let it work God!  Let it work!

Tonight on the way home I was speaking in tongues a lot and hard.  I pictured God’s strength and a rock and my intercession.  God can move that rock wall and He was moving it.

The key is that I can’t give up.  I can never give up.  The manifestation of believing never gives up!  And God didn’t you tell me that Dad would walk again?  That was Your voice wasn’t it Papa?!?  Help me to see it through.

I love You.   Good night!

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June 6-30, 1983 October 26, 2009

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June 6, Monday

My oh my, how fast time can fly!  It seems I’ve been at warp 10 today.
My job here is Food Services.
My Branch responsibility is Chapel Set-up.
My teacher is God.
The Word has got to be my heartbeat.
Speak in tongues every hour.
Our current class is “Introduction to Research Design and Writing”!

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June 30, Thursday

Well Pops and Diary, it’s been almost a month and boy what a month. I arrived at Rome City and three weeks after getting here I was in New Mexico. L.E.A.D. was tremendous. I have my diary from it and plan to staple it together and put it in here.

I’ve grown to love God a little more this block. I still need to work on honesty in everything in my life, especially food.

After my L.E.A.D. evaluation I wrote more goals:

Be me more; care less what others think.
Practice mental endurance.
Be honest with every detail of my life.
Develop better study habits.

I know one more is to believe that I am all woman and that I am beautiful. Papa, I’ve got to see that clearly.

My job this block has been Food Services. Pat S. and Joy N. are the top coordinators. The Interim Corps staff have been Willie W., Gary T., and Ann S. I’ve see a lot at this campus about love and about meeting the need before production. Individuals are more important than production.

My Twig has been Margie and Darryl with Gina, Bert and Lee with Rosalie and Mary Lee, Shirley, myself, and the Lord.

On my job now I’m learning how to wait the Head Table. Connie M. and I are the 13th Corps doing it.

My dad is starting the PFAL Class in July. My sister is pregnant. I thumbed home from L.E.A.D. with Michael N. and Kathy. I’m wonderful.  It is time to hit the hay.

My job next year (Interim year) is Headquarters Kitchen!

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